Having been confined
to a room with
most of the amenities
by a need
whose authority I recognize
and not allowed
to come out
until I have resolved
certain contradictions
neither impossible
nor unfair
has led to a matter
I would rather not
look into
having
as it does
the face of those
I never want
or expect
to see again
but despite my reticence
inquiry cannot be avoided
the question
whether or not
or in what ways
I have betrayed
and to this day
continue to betray
myself.
